Must say, it was indeed worst year of life, Yeah 2011 you were too bad for me in many ways but never mind if it gonna ends well J. There comes many moments when things made me to say--- I wanna go where nobody knows my name, when my own was falling apart.
I admit, I had some very bad habits and finally, finally I have taken the decision to get rid of them. This birthday took away promise from me to say NO to shit things and really looking forward to have very positive change J J yes I can do it ;)
I ‘m just thinking I have wasted hell of time in finding happiness in wrong people at wrong places. How funny, people who started walking by holding my hand, who were nothing before they happened to me, I gave them love, time, smiles, pride and status and now they have turned their faces back and …. They hardly know my existence J How mean! Sometime I feel like taking them to top of the mountain and kick their ***: P but never mind again lesson learnt not to land your hand to selfish and mean world! They will use you hard and left their shit in return.
Nevertheless, it does not matter, when god makes you come across such people, when god put you under strict circumstances, HE also has so much to give you. The love I have is a countless blessing; the love I do not deserve is all around me J it is this love that I am able to make through… Thanks god, for giving few very solid reason to go on. “My family and my love”
One another year of life passed away and sadly, which was not a good oneL just desperately needed good year ahead, December, it was first time that I am not happy on my birthday and have started waiting for the next one….
hopes_______ dreams_______ faith_______!!
