Back to square one

and it happened in most tragic way. He has taken back all away, He showed his power and strength. Drenched me bad and showed me prayers have no worth. I will keep on asking whole life why he gave in first place when it was never meant for me. What was the purpose of hurting so many people so many hearts in so many ways. Okay! fine i was all faulty, mistaken and sinner, i did the sins and you made me punished to death. i well deserved the shit slap, and nothing worst can ever happen to anyone, when the thing you cherish is taken back after giving you completely. Fine i was sinner, i know my sins, i know where i was wrong..... but its cruelty to the one who was purely ruined without any mistake. Is it other way round and he was saved from the sinner and whom he doesn't deserve. Ahhh!!! if this is the case its truly justified. Means, I am the culprit, i am responsible and one who is crying bitterly.... what should i say him to calm him down... !! he is loosing the faith in you, he was the one your true lover.

Still & Stoned

Fate, time, life everything is all still from long! Its the same road that I come through from last 5 years, same desk and same work. Same worries and no ray o f hope.

Its not that i didn't try. I do, I did-- tried and tried to change everything from inside out but some spell which is just around and not letting me go out. No matter how terribly I shout and scream its not letting me go out. I want and need this spell to be broken, please break me once and never come back. Nothing is working, its life less face and injured feelings. I am ill when i am actually not. Physically perfect but I am energy less and lethargic. Is it stress and depression---? Monotony or what?  Why I am numbed.

How do I change myself and get rid of depression! I know when things will move on and fall in place I'll be happy but I am pretty sure nothing going to change to colorful and lively. I turned so pessimist. Wishes I cherished turned into ashes one by one. The smile which was best part turned so dull and dried.

disturbed...!

I am confused! I don't know where to end it and where is the new start! GOD- please drift it a bit please! I am begging you on my knees- break the scary circle and let me breathe in the air that is fresh and pure, let the fresh air go inside me deep deep down to push me up and turn me on!

Fatigue-- Mistaken & Failed!

Thankyou!

though, its bad
sometime, its worst
and at times its torturing to death


Apart!


Apart from everything ill and evil happens between us
You're the only who is for me
I should OWN you, be proud of you!


Must must say you're the perfect one
No matter life is not well, but being with you is all well
I'll treasure you forever. 


I am sorry I tore you apart, I felt you down
I being so worst and unfair
You know I am Me, the one very incomplete


You are no one but the ultimate friend and a true love. 
Life lived with you is life ever lived


Thanks a million...  :-)