takin' back

Wondering...
in a situation where
something that meant for you legally, socially, emotionally but
they want every bit of it to break- break it up- tore it apart!


Wondering...
If i'll step forward i'll see the darkness on the faces that I always cherished
and whom I lived up for so long... their smiles are my life!
and
If i'll step back i'll cover up my identity with blanket of misery
from the world outside and the world inside
I'll be thrown to the world where there is no light, no air and no space
Me, myself, my existance,
My all happiness would be taken back
the pain i went through 7 years would end up in darkness again
i won't be able to say, YES my patience lived well, I am rewarded




but what do i do, stepping forward will kill me to death and pushing myself back is hell
I prayed, prayed and prayed to GOD,
i begged and begged and i know this was meant to be broken....
WHY GOD, why i was given in first place when it was not meant for me?

 I am pleeding GOD, don't take it away
it's my food, my breath to survive,
my soul to comfort my dead flash
i hv empty handed with injured dead body, bleeding all complete and through!
Just don't take it back!
It was mine and you gave it to me..... You gave it to me in front of hundred thousand ppl,
I can't back off... I can't be empty handed